The Blossom

…she kept watching outside from her window seat until the train left the platform. The last coach rolled away along with the fading sound of the engine whistle. He came out from behind a pillar of the platform shed. “Finally!” he thought to himself and sighed with relief. At the same instant, he felt a sharp pang deep within. He glanced at his platform ticket, smiled wearily, and got himself blended with the crowd of just arrived travellers hurrying towards the station exit.

Many hours elapsed before she could realise that she was lost in thoughts for so long. The light outside the train windows went on dimming slowly till it almost became dark. “Priya, it’s not over yet – it’s just a tiny break (just like she used to request a ‘time-please’ while playing as a kid). But… is it so simple, though?” this dialogue in her head wasn’t helpful but it kept on playing in a loop. Exhausted by the distance – treaded more mentally than physically, she dozed off.

Raghav was rolling on his bed from one side to other side. Sleep had somehow bade him goodbye. He was thinking of Priya. He regretted his decision not to even see her off. He had feared that that would have made her weaker. He wanted Priya to take a call without any influence but her independent will. “What if she never returns to him?”, he shivered at the thought. Not that he didn’t believe in the strength of their love for each other; however because of the respect for her sense of judgement, he would never cajole her to like his point of view. Nevertheless he wished that she should come back.

When she woke up the next morning, sun had risen already. She prayed as always and looked outside. The train was passing by a small hillock. Few leafless trees ran away backward. She decided to turn away from the window, when she saw it… The gulmohar tree – with its flamboyant display of its flame-red, orange flowers and lush green foliage. She knew well that the tree gets these ornaments in spring and summer only. Raghav liked to watch this colourful celebration of nature while Priya liked to listen melodious voices of songbirds in every summer. A thought crossed her mind. She was thinking about him. She missed him every moment. She took out her professional camera and clicked a few pictures of the blooming gulmohar.

An exhibition of all snaps taken by the competition participants was organised on the day of Priya’s arrival at the venue. The prestigious awards for the best photography were going to be presented on the next day evening. On the awards night, sitting in the third row, Priya was lost in thoughts. She wasn’t sure but she had noticed something during the exhibition. Meanwhile, runners-up awards got announced. She had lost interest in the competition outcome somehow. The event anchor called her name again the third time when she realised that it was she who had won the competition. She moved towards the stage as if in a haze.

The jury awarded the trophy to Priya and shook her hand. There was a thunderous applause when her entry to the competition was displayed on the large LED screen that covered the entire stage width. The gulmohar filled up the entire screen with its glory of vibrant colours. All the guests were stunned by the beauty of the nature and the skill of the photographer. But, her eyes were searching for someone. The another pair of eyes met with hers in a flash. There he was – Raghav. Standing in the corner of the last row of guests, with a beaming smile. She waved inviting him to join on the stage but he gestured that it was her moment and that he would share the joy just by being one of the fans of her art.

She knew that he was as proud of her as he was when they had first met in a similar exhibition many years earlier. And also that although there were rough patches in the journey of all those years, their relationship will always blossom back with the spring of love after an autumn of challenges. During their long walk post the ceremony, Priya whispered in Raghav’s ear, “You’ve submitted the snap of the songbird, right?” Raghav leaned over without replying and planted a gentle kiss on her cheek. She blushed – like the blossom of the Gulmohar.

हापसा

“खूप उकडतंय गं, मी आलो शॉवर घेऊन”, हीला म्हणालो. “जेवण तयार आहे हां, लवकर आटपा”, इति सौ.
हो हो म्हणत मी टॉवेल उचलला… गार पाण्याचे तुषार अंगावर पडताच लाहीलाही होणं क्षणार्धात थांबलं. मन मात्र अचानक भूतकाळा कडे धावलं. आठवणी जाग्या झाल्या बालपणीच्या.

“अण्णा, डोळ्यात साबण गेला माझ्या”, असं म्हणायचा अवकाश की एक तांब्याभर पाणी डोक्यावर ओतलं जायचं, असं की दोन मिनिटं चक्क पाण्यात बुडी मारल्याचा भास व्हायचा. अण्णा म्हणजे माझे आजोबा. उन्हाळ्याची सुट्टी लागली की सारी भावंडं पुण्याला आजोळी जमायची तेव्हाची ही गम्मत. तर विषय चाललेला सकाळच्या ह्या अतिशय मजेदार अनुभवाचा. त्यावेळी आजोळच्या घरी हापसा (बोअरवेल हँडपंप) होता. तसा आजही आहे तो उभा. पण त्यावेळी त्याला पाणी होते. अगदी एक-दोनदा पंप केलं तरी २ इंची नळातून भरभरून पाणी यायचे. एका भावाने हापसा मारायचा आणि दुसऱ्याने नळाखाली छोटा ओटा होता त्यावर बसून लाईफबॉयने आंघोळ करायची. हे थोडे मोठे झालो तेव्हा म्हणा. त्याआधी लहानगे असताना अण्णांच्या मांडीवर बसायचं आणि बुड बुड गंगे म्हणत हापश्याखाली शंभो करायची. लहानग्यांना आंघोळ करता करता अण्णांच्या मांडी वरून घसरगुंडीही खेळायला मिळायची. सकाळी सकाळी गार पाण्यात आंघोळ करून दिवसभर उनाडक्या करायला मोकळे व्हायचो.

मात्र पाणी मुबलक आहे म्हणुन ते नासायची कोणालाच परवानगी नव्हती. सुट्टीत पुण्या बाहेरून आलेल्या सगळ्याच भावंडांना, आणि खास करून आम्हा औरंगाबाद करांना ह्या हापश्याचे प्रचंड अप्रुप होते. आजूबाजूचं कोणी पाणी घ्यायला आले की आम्ही मदत करायला उत्साहात पुढे. शुभ्र फेसाळणारं पाणी शेतातल्या मोटेची आठवण करून देई. भूगर्भातून उसळत बाहेर येणारं मुर्तिमंत चैतन्यच जणू! हळूहळू उन्हाळ्याच्या सुट्टीची लांबी कमी होत गेली, आणि हापश्याचं पाणी पण आटत गेलं. आता कधी आजोळी गेलो तर बादलीत (कॉर्पोरेशनच्या नळाचं) पाणी घेउन हापश्या शेजारी बसून आंघोळ करण्यात आनंद मानून घेतो. थोडा गंजलाय, चेन लिंक्स कुरकुरताहेत पण ताठ उभाय अजून. असं हे आमचं हापसा पुराण.

“स्वयंपाक गार होतोय. आज होईल का आंघोळ पूर्ण?” किचन मध्ये तापमान वाढलं वाटतं. चला भेटुया परत ‘मामाचा गाव’ च्या पुढच्या सदरात.

What’s the worst possibility?

What’s the worst possibility?

Is this a right question to ask in the current situation? Many of us may say, “yes, that’s how we may prepare ourselves to handle an emotional trauma.” That’s a very counterintuitive answer though. Do you really think it enhances our emotional resilience? We may not like to hear this, but, friends, it doesn’t really help. It’s just preponement of the distress that spoils the current physical and psychological health too. All our literature from thousands of years has been suggesting that every mortal who comes to the earth must leave it one day. The cycle of birth and death will continue forever. It’s natural. Still, don’t we want always to be with our near and dear ones? The point is, can we really detach ourselves from our emotions? Should we ponder on the end as soon as we begin, or as we journey through this wonderful ride, human life?

I remember an Oscar nominated movie from Indian film industry, ‘Shwaas’, when I think about the topic we’re discussing here. Literally, the title means, ‘a breath’. The story is about a young boy, Parashuram. He comes to the city along with his Grandpa – Mr. Vichare for an eye test due to some issues with his vision. Vichare is completely shocked to know that his grandson is suffering from a rare type of retinal cancer, and that there’s only one remedy – the boy has to undergo a surgery leading to complete blindness for life. He asks time for seeking a second opinion, thinking if Parshu can have at least one of his eyes intact. The Medical social worker at the hospital informs him that the surgeon is a veteran in the field. The surgeon even discusses the case with subject matter experts across the globe; but to no avail.

Mr. Vichare is now left with the tough task of telling the news to Parshu’s parents who are at the village. Even more critical and tougher task is to explain all this to Parshu. The medical counsellor supports Grandpa in this. She explains it to Parshu in easier terms. He understands, but goes silent. For some unforeseen issues, the surgery gets postponed by a day. This is the tipping point when emotional pain of Parshu’s tender heart becomes excruciating; he creates unprecedented ruckus in the hospital ward and throws such tantrums that even his Grandpa can’t appease him. The situation turns very grievous. That night, Vichare and Parshu disappear from the hospital; all search in desperation but can’t find both.

Upon returning to hospital before the surgery is due, Grandpa faces a harsh reprimand from the surgeon for his behaviour. When he answers their questions, the hospital team is left stunned. When he leaves hospital the previous day, Grandpa takes Parshu to city-centre, they enjoy funfair rides, watch the colourful dwindling city lights, and beautiful birds, and playing dog puppies. Four eyes are gathering happy memories. Parshu is lost in the surroundings and Grandpa in Parshu’s ecstatic laughter. Vichare tells the surgeon that he wanted Parshu to absorb the sight of many colours and beautiful features of life before he’s deprived of all those post his eye surgery…

When Parshu returns to his village after recovery, he’s not a defeated soul but is a warrior who knows that life is worth living. Vichare is grateful – as despite losing eyesight, his Grandson is not only alive and healthy but also is an active vigorous child as he has ever been.

In short, a well paid job, a house, and wealth definitely cause us to be happy. But many other apparently trivial aspects of life give as much joy as those mentioned earlier. Only necessity is to attempt to make this moment a happier one than the prior, for self as well as others. Positive thinking doesn’t mean turning a blind eye to reality. It’s just about hoping to witness the golden sunshine that will spread after the dark clouds pour out their hearts.

Such optimistic thoughts enhance our emotional strength; even psychological research confirms this. Affectionate moments with family and friends deposited in our emotional accounts regularly in good times come to our aid in trying times. Hopefulness is a blessing and an identity we’ve got as humans from the Creator. Let’s recognise this. Instead of pushing through days anxiously, let’s breathe fully, laugh heartily and ask, “What’s the best possibility?”

Namaste.